I have been thinking.
The questions are: What I am going to do about getting so sick and being sick for longer periods each time I am sick?
How can being raw get bumped up a notch and still be fun?
I have been eating high raw for a few years now.
I used to live in the dream that eating 100% raw will cure what ails me.
I think deep down I have given up on the idea so much so that I have stopped trying for more.
I feel better eating raw. Tons better. I feel even better if the raw I eat is organic, but that is not always possible.
I find eating raw easy.
It tastes great. I like the art of it all.
Playing with the ingredients food feeds the Foodie in whose favorite meal ever was at eaten at The French Laundry.
I keep practicing with each dish so that I can have my food look as good as the food I was served there.
A hobby of sorts.
But playing with my food has done little to serve getting to a place where I see doctors and the hospital emergency rooms less.
Now I am curious to see what kind of balance I can create and have the body I dream of; one that is healthy, functional and attractive.
So far I have been enjoying the play- being in the kitchen with fresh fruits, veggies, nuts, herbs, spices and sea greens. Because the food on my plate always all looked great I thought that hit the healthy part. A functioning body was a side effect I assumed was attaining.
I lost weight and maintained at a weight that looked great for my height:117.
I had the attractive part down after the first six months of eating raw.
The medications I have had to take this year have altered the way my body looks. The thing that bothers me most about being so much heavier now (again) is that I can see how unhealthy I feel.
Losing weight is not my main concern. I know eating raw will get me looking the way I was and exercise will get me back in shape.
The thing that eludes me is having a body that functions.
I have never hit a place where my body functioned at it's optimal.
That is my Holy Grail.
I see people going on raw juice fasts or feasts for days on end.
I did the Master Cleanse. I stayed on it for 40 days. If you have not heard of this it is a simple lemonade made of grade b maple syrup, fresh lemon juice and cayenne pepper, all proportioned to water and consumed through the day.
I was pretty proud of myself. I didn't mind that my brain was loopy and I was in a constant mood of irritation because I was loosing weight.
The thing that pissed me off was what happened after breaking the cleanse.
As soon as I started eating the weight came back in the next month. (I did the Master cleanse before I had a proper allergy test. Turns out I am allergic to peppers and citrus.)
I mention the Master Cleanse because it's after effect is was what lead me to search the internet for more information. That's when I found out about eating raw.
I think the whole thing about how I eat could use some maturing.
I will start by looking for balance.
My thinking is to juice feast most of the day, have a raw meal in the evening, then a bite of a raw dessert.
When I read this it looks as off balance as the Master cleanse but I think my body could use a little break and let go of all the Prednizone I have taken this year.
So my first step looking for balance makes me laugh.
the mess of juicing
The photo above is the juice of:
1 medium sized watermelon
7 small apples
2 bunches kale